FOR WHAT??

I really miss u...

Really...

I wan to text u,

but dun dare,

scare for ur cold toward the concern I give...

Scare u more hate me,

Scare cause i care...

How can I do when miss u?

Can anyone tell me?

***

Now really hope can go beach,

miss the sea,

miss the sky,

miss the wind...

I need a deep breath that without building,

Just the natural!!!

I cant breath well,

I cant continue the life now,

Every moment feel so stress to me,

Everyone I told about this,

They all ask me dun think so much,

But who can really know my feeling?

I just need a deep breath that without pressure,

I wan to abort all the pressure away...

I wan the freedom,

I need the freedom,

Now,

I am just like a bird that being lock in the cage,

Cant fly in the sky,

Cant enjoy my life,

Cant have my own decision.

I wish can start over my life,

Start over many things that I regret!!!

Make another action,

Make another decision.

But,

How to make it?

I also dun know...

I am so helpless,

My life without bright,

My life without target,

My life without the mind to make me carry on!!!

Dun know the point to live,

Cant find my future yet,

Cant figure out what i wan now...

I... FEEL... SO... HELPLESS... !!!